Monday, August 25, 2008
Consider the plight of Olympians whose athletic career is now over. What now? What does one do with one’s life, when the vast proportion of it has been devoted to one goal: winning Olympic gold? These athletes, whose lives have been regimented thus far, often find the prospect of retiring frightening (see article: “Post Olympics not all fun and games”).
The word ‘vertigo’ comes to mind thinking on this matter, and the over powering parallels between these athletes and those who are now outside of the regimented confines of organized religion, especially with those in leadership who have ‘unselfishly’ abandoned all in the name of winning their gold.
The dizziness, disorientation is a mind numbing paralysis that stares them down; they see no solution, no way out of that which has become their hellish prison.
I have experienced this paralysis first hand, in being (euphemistically) ‘let go’ from my leadership position as a pastor years ago, I nose dived, crashed and burned.
There were initially two or three years I lived in deep depression, seeing any value, or worth being stripped from me as a man, a husband and as a father.
I was enveloped in a great sadness that hounded every breath I took.
Little did I realize at the time, this was going to be the very place where I was going to begin to discover what my true worth, value and purpose was as God’s child.
Apart from the goodness of God brining us to a place of sobriety and recognition that we are loved for who we are, something only His unconditional love is able to do; we will travel the well worn roads leading nowhere.
It’s as if this unconditional love of God the Father is like a portal that transports you into a whole new world, you step into it on this side of what has been defined as life to you, only to discover what has been guarded and reserved just for you regarding your worth, value and significance has been waiting but your arrival.
This security of being loved of the Father that has its source, roots deeply embedded in who God is, is going to press a lot of buttons in the lives of those who will fight to the death defending a God who is neither kind nor safe to approach.
The wastefulness of His love is all that is required to free us to walk free from our personal vertigo.
This video clip from youtube speaks of this vertigo many have or are experiencing.
For the die hard vertigo movie fans, this is for you.